better

So, I've been feeling better. Things at work are much better this week, and it's nice to have people in the shop. Rachel and I have talked, and I feel a lot more happy about us, too. There was a lot of stuff going on with student loans that had me worried, but I think it's all taken care of now.

I'm sorry for those who I upset with my last post, especially my baby. It was just a sad week for me, and I wasn't feeling very good. I'm feeling better about life in general now, and have addressed a lot of the specific problems I was dealing with last week. I am going to try to find a doctor here in Kentucky when I get back from RE/MAX and see about getting my dose of Zoloft increased.

So... I love you baby, don't worry. I'll see you this weekend, and I'll be back from RE/MAX before you know it.

not so good

I've been feeling so depressed in the past couple days. It's not even anything specific, but I just feel so sluggish, and upset over everything. I feel like I have the weight of the world pressing down on top of me. Everyone at work has been asking me if I'm ok. It's so hard to explain that yeah, probably everything is ok, but yes, I feel like shit. This is how I felt in high school most of the time. I feel like I did before I started the zoloft, and I've been really good about taking it every day, too. Even trying to get decent amounts of sleep when I can. I just feel so alone and sad all the time, especially today, I just feel like life isn't worth living right now. I wish I still had a big group of friends to hang out with, and people to live with. I feel like I should have gone to grad school, just so I wouldn't have to be alone like this.

I don't know what the real underlying cause to all of this is, but I just feel like something big is about to hit me, and I don't know what yet.

this just in

This just in: I love Rachel.