There have been so many really awesomely good things, and so many very weird and troubling things lately. I'm pleased to say that all of the good things have vastly over-shadowed the negative things in my life, and I find myself still maintaining a mostly cheery disposition and outlook on life. It helps, of course, being able to talk to my wonderful poohbear multiple times daily to keep things in perspective.
Where to begin? Well, the most difficult thing that has happened at work is that Joe got fired. This came as a result of him being a huge giant fuckup who couldn't keep his shit straight long enough to work one show without completely fucking over everyone else involved. Sorry if I sound bitter, but I am fucking bitter, ok? Joe was supposed to be a new addition to the OLLS group to ease the production workload on the rest of us, and instead, he did nothing but bitch and complain about how much he was out of town, and when he was in the shop, he did everything possible to weasel out of doing actual work. When he DID get cornered into actually working for his fucking wages, he fucked shit up left and right, and then always managed to escape blame by being sick the next day, or leaving early, or coming in late after the show was already re-packed on the truck or whatever.
*deep cleansing breath*
Work has been CRAZY busy, as you know from my last update. I did manage to get some time off to go home for Rosh Hashannah with the family. This was, in itself, a strange mix of ups and downs. It was so nice to see Uncle Dave and Aunt Judi - I haven't seen either of them in about a year, probably two years for Uncle Dave. I was hoping they would bring their new puppy with them but I think he wasn't ready to make the trip yet. It was cool to see our big group of family together like that. Ilana and I hung out a bit and I went with her to the verizon store where she got her new blackberry curve (SOOO jealous... makes me hate windows mobile even more...). I've pretty much decided at this point that I don't care if work supports it or not, I'm gonna get me a blackberry with my next equipment upgrade. I'll run the desktop software myself from home on my dell if I have to. Anyway - the reason that Pittsburgh was kind of a downer was that Dad was in a really fucked up mood the whole time I was home. Mom kind of tried to excuse him for not liking family get-togethers or whatnot, but I mean, he didn't even want to stay home this morning to say goodbye, instead he went off to temple to usher for services. I mean... really? His two kids are in town for a WEEKEND and he doesn't even want to have breakfast with us? I tried to defend him to Ilana at first too, but then I gave up when he turned his giant asshole mood on me big time. Whatever. I was so glad to see Ilana and my Mom and Gramma and the rest of the gang, it was still an awesome trip.
So now here I am at 3:40am, can't really sleep because I went to bed so early and woke up again. I was just EXHAUSTED after driving back from Pittsburgh today and then working basically a full day to get everything ready for the next couple of days while I'm in and out of town working on shows in Louisville.
What I meant by the subject of this entry, about juxtapositions, is that amongst all of this stuff that keeps cropping up that is weird, or sad, or bothersome, none of it gets to me anymore the way it used to, because I've realized that my biggest life goal - that of meeting the woman I want to marry and make a family with, has already been accomplished. Emily and I are so perfect together, and just talking to her for five minutes to say goodnight puts a huge smile on my face. When I dream about her, it's about us having a family, and a home together. I know that some of you will say it's too soon to feel like this, but I'm 110% sure that Emily is my soul-mate, and we were meant to bump into each other and be together. I guess what I'm really getting at is I've finally found my real, honest-to-goodness happy place in life - and her name is Emily!
